QUENCH MY THIRST.
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
can't doubt now.
i can't doubt.
if i start to doubt everything will fall.
haix.
why?
everything is just so pressuring.
but i really need to be certain
certain of myself
certain of wat i can go
certain of where God leads me to.
i must haf faith.
i need it. its just so HARD.
its not easy at all.
haix.
its not easy to be me
why?
i wish i din haf to doubt.
i NEED to have faith
jeremiah 33:3
God's hp number.
oh well.
grant me, give me FAITH
faith in YOU
PLEASE.
i wanna depend on YOU.
be with me.
God Bless.
changeme.
10:24 PM
am i crazy to change skin so often?
haha. dunno la.
just felt bored.
no mood to do any sort of hwk
lol.
haix. feeling sian.
dun wanna go bak to skool.
stupid o'lvls.
super pressuring.
urgh! can we dun haf o'lvls?
haha.
impossible.
if only sec 4 was over.
ahh. can time pass faster?
hmm. really dun feel like studying.
can i dun study? haix.
after o'lvls is a'lvls.
then still got uni.
wah sian la.
haix.
nvm.
God Bless.
changeme.
6:37 PM
been slacking.. ahh.. lots of hwk not done.. gonna die le la... will start on it soon... think can complete la...
sian.. not too excited on returning to school... but still haf to la.. haix... nvm... oh well...
a month of ESS.. nid to get juniors to come.. haha.. hope can bring at least to to know Christ... =)
God Bless
changeme.
6:04 PM
Sunday, January 29, 2006
today watched IDSF Grand Slam finals... was so cool la... i totally loved the Jive... Samba was also great.... love the Quickstep too.. maybe this yr wanna watch live? hope can get tix to watch...
yeah.. finally finis one whole day of visiting relatives.. this year a bit weird... we din get to meet all my mom's siblings... go every hse also din get to meet them... hmmx...
even w/o gettin red packets frm them, i still got ard $200++ .. my mom allows mi to take care of it all this yr... i think i'll take ard $20 to tithe... then the rest see how.. but definitely nid to keep some in bank... haha...
all of a sudden i just felt like giving more... haha.. dunno why... like i suddenly really feel very blessed by God, and i really wanna give something in return... i wanna make God smile... wanna love Him wholeheartedly... =)
jus feel whole with God by my side... nv known how lonely i was until i knew God... this new year feels different.. it IS different... its not like the past few years, where i just go thru the motions... today is much more... jus dunno how.. but God has changed my life...
dunno how long it would be till i can really understand how God truly works in my life, but i wanna be on a lookout, wanna take note of all the blessings that God has given me.. sometimes we dun see the small blessing tat God gives us... blessings, big or small, are all frm God.. i wanna thank God for EVERYTHING he has done in my life... not just some things.. but everything...
oh well.. haf a happy CNY ppl! do take care and dun eat too much titbits...
God Bless.
changeme.
9:44 PM
woot! a new skin for a new lunar year!! haha.. i love my new blog skin.. its so cool!!! hahah...
happy CNY ppl! may God bless you and ur family in everything!!!
changeme.
12:37 AM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
i saw jason at my grandma hse tat block. he lives a floor below my grandma. such coincidence. haha. my mom saw him wearing cchms pe tshirt and dyed long hair. lolx.
i was thinking that if it had been a yr ago, or even 6 mths ago, before i received Jesus into my life, jason would be just another stranger that i had to share the lift with. he would just be this guy who wears my school pe shirt and i would wonder about his dyed hair and about its length. i would ask why hadn't i seen him in school before and if he was a senior who had just graduated. i would haf left the lift with these questions.
but since i know him, i know that he used to study in cchs, just not main, and he probably got the shirt from someone in our school.
he isn't just a stranger anymore, he is not just another guy. he is a brother, someone who has something in common with me. someone who has the same trust and faith in God that i haf. i am not the only one in that lift who knows God. he knows the people that i know, ppl even my family do not know. he is someone who understands that God has sent his Son to die for us, and i know tat he understands.
at that moment i understood that being God's child brings you closer to strangers. people u have never know before, but thru God, u are related to them in some tangible way. Being His means building relationships that are out of your usual group of frens. it brings u away from the friends of this world, and guides u to brothers and sisters who will be stading with you till eternity...
that is the difference btw being a believer and a non believer.
a year ago, six months ago, he would haf been a stranger.
but today, he is a brother. Family.
God bless.
changeme.
10:17 PM
brokeback is coming to singapore.. but its gonna be r21.. sianx.. i wanna watch.. i read the story le.. its like onli 10++ pages.. but its film could actualli win 4 golden globes.. i wanna watch.. i wonder how long is it gonna be..
oh well...
changeme.
3:22 PM
http://www.kodachrome.org/
just went to the aboye web and did some sort of spiritual gifts test. do it if u want to, but dun take it too seriously. wait for a year plus in Christ b4 u take any of these test seriously, cos if u are young in Christ, u probably haven explored much and thus many answer many of the questions incorrectly. your role in Christ probably haven settle down yet. so use it as a guide to figure out wat ur gifts are, dun take it as if they are ur gifts.
i got varying results each time i did them... one that remained as one of the top few was the gift of faith, so i wan to test it out and see.. serve God and test whether i do have this gift... only by serving can u find ur gifts...
God Bless.
changeme.
1:02 PM
this week has been different. i feel that God is moving in me.
i want to commit more.
i NEED to commit more.
i want to grow so i really need to commit even more.
feeling the desire to grow in me.
WOW.
haven felt this way for quite some time.
i desire.
i really desire.
being desperate for God.
to grow so much closer.
to depend on Him.
to submit to God,
His will and His ways.
i desire.
i am desperate.
i wanna grow.
God Bless.
changeme.
11:56 AM
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Everything to me, more than a story, more than words on a page, of history.
You're the air that i breathe, the water of the storm, and the ground beneath my feet,
You're everything to me.
EVERYTHING.
God, you are my everything.
found this christian radio station.
www.klove.com
go listen. =)
cny coming. lots of stuff not done. o'lvls is being stressed by my dad.
com gonna be taken away. i hope that this yr will be over soon. pray for a really good harvest.
God Bless.
changeme.
12:07 AM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
hmm... sometimes i wonder why ppl question God.. but then i realise that everyone has insecurities... but one thing abt God is that He is the same, yesterday, today and forever... with God, all your doubts will disappear...
still have cl to do.. haix.. the zuo wen.. do till 1 plus bah... i have a plan but i almost always dun follow thru... crappy time management...
i wanna be certain of my future. i wanna stand firm in God. nothing will ever move mi from my faith in God. i know of His love & His grace in my life. i understand it. i will never fall away.
God bless.
changeme.
11:42 PM
hmm.. helped tino to do his blog today.. haha.. finally its no longer mouldy... check my links for his new blog add... =)..
i spent like 1 hr ++ on the phone and online helping him.. though there were a few messed up stuff but it still wen ok.. now i haf to study for bio and do zuo ye.. hmmx... better start soon... i think shld start at 7.. which means that i nid to go bathe now and start studying at 7... then doing zuo ye shldn't take too long..1 hr?
i need to revise and confirm questions for marcom articles and plan to meet these ppl... yup... i guess that's my plan for what's left of the day.. hope to study phy or loci if there is time.. and ting xie too...
God Bless...
changeme.
6:33 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
refreshed by God... nothing feels better than tat..
two wks of sch and it hasn't been smooth for my walk wif God... tired out by skool and hwk... so much left to learnt and so little time...
but God refreshed me today.. God brought my faith up again... God gave me strength... God assures me... When you are tired, come to Me... that is God's promise... i find comfort and strength in God...
Pastor David Chen was great today... laughed my head off.. haha... marcom meeting was good.. got updated on events.. and the meeting on pioneering was great.. seeting directions and plans... today's qt is gonna be long... gonna evaluate and set goals....
east blog gonna be set up.. marcom needs write ups... school needs hwk to be done... all these, i must do it with God in my heart... May he always lead me...
love the songs 'You are The One' & 'Hosanna'..
in your holiness i find redemption song,
in your majesty i find where i belong.
God bless
changeme.
9:46 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
dad's taking away my com... so its gonna diff for mi to do stuff online.. nvm.. pray to get it back soon... i may not update much...
god bless...
changeme.
4:27 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
i felt it.
God never says, How many times...
God only asks, are you willing? how much do you love me?
thank you, for being so patient. thank you, for being so gracious.
changeme.
2:52 AM